The Fear Within..

I never really wanted to touch this topic again but somehow the fear that has been groping me and aggravating by the day; I had to write it out.
Another rape case and this time it is not Delhi; rape, or should i say a gang-rape. Another news that did the rounds was about a foreign student who faced sexual harassment to the level of core brutality.

Sometimes I just want to delve in the psychology of these men who assault the ladies. What do they think of us, sex toys or something of the sorts is a very small bit to think of in such cases. And what is new, now they do not do it alone, they take their friends along to make sure it happens.

Fear, is what I live in. Oh yes! fear I say because I am scared to the core and every news of sexual assault sends a chill running down my spine. Sometimes i feel the goosebumps too. I do not want to go out too and every time I do, it is a calculated risk that I take.
I do not know when will someone grope me down and rape me. Ignoring the lascivous ogles have already become a routine for me. Somehow the fear is a part of my existence now.

But then there are some exceptions too. Some who refrain from bowing down and speak up.
A very close acquaintance of mine who had been facing sexual harassment by her boss at office, recently spoke up against it. No, she did not complain to the authorities, rather she went straight to the man and threatened him. Big step I would say, she actually said that she will involve her parents and get him beaten up if he doesn't stop that all or if he revenge that professionally.
It worked! The guy doesn't even look at her now.

Simple as it may sound but it was indeed something. It made a difference atleast to her life.
Honestly, I do not have faith in any government or any movement people will have. No revolution is happening here and that is for sure.
The point I want to make is that no one will stand for me, the protests on streets or the new laws or the medical aid for treatment will not help me.
I will have to stand up for myself. I will have to be self sufficient enough, a wonder woman maybe.
I will have to be the shakti, because as I always say, My safety is My responsibility.

(Confused Genius is thinking about the not so educated ones who will not get the message Such rapes and assaults whenever they happen go unreported. It will be better to reach out to them rather than whining about and protesting on streets. They need our voice more.)